Relief?

I don't usually do this; Put something very personal on here but I need an outlet and my normal channels are all clogged with their own grief.

My cousin died yesterday. My Uncle's youngest child, many moons younger than I, passed away. I know my Uncle and Aunt are devastated. I imagine I would be too if it were my child.

I do not feel the hollow lose I expected to feel at his going. He has been suffering several months from an inoperable tumor in his brain. I only feel relief. I can only imagine how he felt trapped in his own head unable to communicate or move for these last few weeks. I remember a vibrant person full of jokes and high on life. I am glad I did not see him after that nasty growth took hold.

Good-bye dear cousin. Be at peace and enjoy a much better place.