Who was I kidding?

My last post said back to normal. There is absolutely nothing normal about the way I am living now. Beat the cancer and now I have to hide from a bug. Sheesh.

Back to Normal

I have finished my chemo and now get a treatment every third week. Supposedly the cancer has disappeared but they want this immunotherapy to help my body fight any new invasions. Still not feeling very creative. Always tired but I suppose I should be happy with small victories.

New Problems

Who would have thought a sleep test would lead to discovering I have cancer? Malignant lung neoplasm cancer. They have not decided on a method of battling it. Will know the 13th but until then I am in this limbo. Not sure if I should be angry, sad or just glad they found it this early. I had no signs of it when I had my DVT/PE in Feb 2018. So it looks like it will be an uphill battle with me kicking and screaming all the way.........Oh by the way, I do NOT have sleep apnea. Ha to that.

Sleep Test

Can you imagine voluntarily going in to have yourself plastered with goop and electrodes just to see if you snore? An awake partner is a better gauge and much cheaper.

Well I just went through a sleep study that was supposed to track my breathing during sleep. There were no frantic wake ups because I stopped breathing and only one rushed disconnect related to a bathroom break.

But even though I passed I am told my Dr. could still opt to have me use a CPAP machine. Either you need one or you don't. 

Depression sucks

Here it is nearly the end of July and I have hardly produced anything creative. Why? It seems I caught depression somewhere. Seriously you cannot catch it and there is no easy cure but there are ways of battling it. It is like clawing your way out of a deep muddy hole.

I am still working on getting back to "normal" and hope to begin creating pretties soon. Until then I will just keep clawing.

And the Valentines continue

I seem to be compensating for the gloomy days we are having. It is lovely to have a cheery card to brighten up things. So I made some more using an envelope, a pocket I folded like my Christmas cards and a little matchbook full of paper.

Pretty pocket to add to a journal or just enjoy.

For some reason I could not get the three tags to photograph true color. They are actually cream as in the 1st photo with pink images.

Envelope pocket without the tags.

Once again the origami pocket has proved useful. 

When opened the small matchbook (about the size of real matchbooks) reveals a pad of paper to use. They are perforated to make removal easier

More New Creations

I made another with the other bag I saved. It only had 2 tags and no tuck spot. I like the red and black.